REVERSE TRUTH SONG

I’m so tired
of dirty water
the rich on their boats
old magic
when I get my money
like a corpse
I clasp myself
beneath the surface
where there are no rules
when I was younger
sometimes shaded
or bright with sun
I walked down streets
named after presidents
named after trees
I was eleven
I fell asleep in the library
saw her face
and never woke
since then she
has sometimes
appeared in people
I meet her
in their faces shining
like one who just
married another
each day my mouth
looks more like
a mouth about
to say something
that matters
like it’s never good
to come home
not yet and you can’t
see the planet
or leave your body
you can go to the lake
but no one cares
except the ones
who love you
they don’t want
to harm you
but you always
need a name
or how will they find you