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Nik and I sit in silence for some inordinate stretch of time until Mara slinks into the room and reaches out for me. We leave as if in slow motion, an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond covering the room in alternating shades of neon light. Nik smokes a joint.
Mara insists on the radio. I try to talk, but she can’t hear me. She keeps turning the volume up and down, her fingers lingering on the knob.
I don’t know it until we’re at the door—until we’re three steps inside the breezeway—but we’re at a strip club.
I pull myself vertical and wait for my head to stop its sloshing, but it doesn’t. My eyes grab at images as if through a glass of milk, everything frothy and white. I don’t nap because this is how I feel when I wake: my entire physical being tired in the bone and weighed down by some invisible anchor, flu-like and swimming.
When I wake up again, I am back on the couch with warmth pushing into my side. It’s Mara.